换换换！！！

今天我终于明白为什么女孩们都喜欢在失恋的时候跑去剪头发。

原来，换了个发型就能换个心情，换个想法。

这-是-真-的。。。

话说我在上两个星期六跑去剪短我的头发。（其实还是长，只是比之前的头发短罢了）

其实我很不舍得把我那头长发给剪去，毕竟真的很长了！而且我也留了很久。。

可是我几乎每天都要进lab而我也很懒惰每天帮头发和照顾头发，再加上那段时间我心情真的很不好~

所以我决定去剪短我的头发。

大家都说我剪了新发型后变得亲切很多，好看很多 *真的啊？*

我个人觉得也不错。。哈哈！

但是我发现我剪了头发后心情真的也跟着亮起来耶！

就连思想也豁达很多很多很多很多。。

多到我成绩考不好都不再Emo，反而跟自己说Final一定要努力！！！！

哦这是好事吗？我不知道。。

我只知道我真的没有伤心和失望到。这有点不像我，我有点不习惯。。

我这次很差不代表我到最后也会很差的ok！！！

我不知道这是不是换过发型过后的心理作用。

我只知道我现在身心灵都充满了正面的能量！！！！！

前

后 （希望你们看的出长度上的变化）

那是我们都回不去的从前

这几天，我一直在看回以前的旧照片。

看着照片，我开始堕入了回忆的漩涡。

周星驰说的真的没错--〉 “人是会变的！”

照片是一年前拍的。也有些是中学时期拍的。

我发现，

身处在时间洪流的我们，除了带着回忆不断前进之外，别无他法。

不说远的，说近的吧。。

我看了很多一年前拍的照片。

那是在不远的2009年8月。

我们笑得是多么的灿烂。。

我们是多么的开心。。

但是现在呢？

大家都变了。

不管事内在还是外在，

大家都变了。

我不再是从前的那个我，你也不再是我最初认识的那个你。

他呢？他怎么变成了个陌生人似的？

我有得重新的认识他了。 （好像很忙ho？忙着重新认识人 XD）

我们被环境逼着成长。

我们被环境逼着走入那尔虞我诈的世界。

我们被逼一次又一次的面对人性的丑恶，然后，看开。

看着照片。

我知道，

我们再也回不到最初的那个我们。

S.H.A.M.E

I`m a Malaysian Chinese and I feel very PROUD to my identity.

But then I found out some negative sides of the Chinese and I really feel shame about it.

Let me tell you what are the weakness of the Chinese (based on my observation in uni)

1.Extremely Kiasu (Scare to lose)

2.Kiasi

3.Selfish

4.Love to complaint but refuse to take any action to make the situation better.

5.Rude (In some way)

6.Keh Lin Keh Si

7.Extremely fussy (this is the one which I cannot stand for it ><)

Haiz...Too bad I`m struggling in this kind of environment!

Trust and Honesty 信任，诚实

“大风吹，吹什么？” 大家一定对这句话很熟悉，因为他是我们童年回忆的一部分。每当我们玩“大风吹”时，其中一个人就会问“大风吹！”，其他人就会应“吹什么？”，然后那个喊“大风吹”的人就会发出指令如“吹没有穿内裤的人！”然后那些没穿内裤的人就得起身去抢椅子。

这看似简单又有趣的游戏，其实就是在考验着人与人之间的信任。年幼的小孩们，思想单纯，没有心机，更不知道什么叫顾好仪态，听到指令，就会诚实的站起来去跟人抢椅子。也许有些小孩已经开始懂得说谎，但是我想大多数的小孩都不会去想那么多就去抢椅子了。

写到这里，有令我想起了另一个游戏叫“老鹰捉小鸡”。老鹰捉小鸡，就是一个人扮老鹰，一个人扮母鸡，剩下的人扮小鸡。母鸡的责任就是要保护小鸡不让小鸡被老鹰捉走。我在十一二岁的是后就已经发现了关于这个游戏一件事实。我发现我在幼稚园和小学低年级（7-8岁）晚这个游戏时，“小鸡”们都会乖乖站在“母鸡”身后让“母鸡”保护。。但是，当我们的年纪大一些时，我们开始选择自己逃跑，而不在是让母鸡保护。当时的我们会认为我们离母鸡太远，母鸡会保护不到我们。所以我们选择自己保护自己。至少当年我是这么觉得的。走笔至此，我不禁怀疑，我们，人，是不是在那个年纪就已经学会了“不信任”？我们是不是在不知不觉中对别人，对自己失去了信任,进而犯下了种种与“不信任”，“不诚实”有关的罪？

当我们开始对自己不诚实，我们就开始对别人不诚实？过后，别人也对我们不诚实。最后，人与人之间不再存有“信任”二字？然后，我们开始在考试作弊，信口开河，欺诈，出卖别人。。。我们开始制定法律来保护自己。做生意要签合约，办信用卡要签约，不管是什么，只要是有关于到“信任”这两个字的东西都得签约。可悲的人类。

犹记得在大一时，有位讲师，第一天进班就要求我们和他达成一项约定“Trust and Honesty”.大家默不作声。直到后来。我们把他的lab report交给了他几天之后，他忽然说要见我们。在那次的见面中，他很生气地问我们有没有互相抄report.没有几个人敢承认他们有抄。最后那讲师一气之下，竟然给我们满分，以后他也不要在管我们了。也许我们是因为害怕受到处分而选择不诚实。

是的，我们很多时候都会选择不诚实。我们会选择不信任。那我是不是该说，选择权在我们身上。只是我们选择不信任?既然不信任别人，那别人也开始选择对我们不诚实？

Convocation

Today is my uni`s 3rd convocation ceremony.I been there just for a while before I go to the town.

Convocation day is always the day which is a very joyful and proud one!After few years of hard works the students can finally graduate and the convocation ceremony is here for them and also their love ones to share the glory =)

I`m going to finish my degree course after 2 years and I`m starting to imagine the day when I wear the graduation robe!My parents and my grand parents will surely be proud of me!

The day is not long from now,just that I have to work very hard and enjoy my uni life very hard =))And yes,witness a convocation ceremony is a very motivational thing =D

To Do Before my 21st Birthday (part 2)

I had listed few things that I want myself to finish before my 21st birthday. Click here to see the previous post~Ok now let me continue to add up some of my new target to- be-achieved.

6. Spend less time on facebook, surfing the net.

-Yes I admit that I`m addicted to internet especially facebook and this had become the major reason for me to read less book.I can say that I lost patience to read a book.Though I still read but I can`t finish in a short time like before.I must spend my time on other stuff especially reading.

7.Maintain a healthy life style.

-I know this is quite impossible as I`m staying in a hostel but then I will try mt best to achieve this target!!at least I should sleep earlier =)) And also try my best to spend some time on doing some exercise..Haha..

8.When I wish to do something,just go for it!

-Well this need loads of courage..can you sell some of yours to me? xD I realized that I got a lot of things that I wish to try but I just don`t dare to go for it!So from today I want to ensure that I will give myself some more confident and courage and go to do anything that I like to do..Of course not smoking,drinking,taking drugs xD but things like go for travelling,go to watch a band concert in Penang....

9.EQ!

-Erm this is another hard thing for me.Sometimes I just can`t control my emotion.I don`t know it` because is my own problem or because of those childish people I met in my daily life =s I don`t care but what I want myself to do is be tolerate and keep quiet!

10.Get a result with flying-colour in my year 2.

-Though my result is not that good last sem because of that stupid entrepreneurship but I promised myself never give up!I would never forget what I had promised to myself!

Kiasu Syndrome!

Agree or not?The Chinese are born to be kiasu.Kiasu in Hokkien means "afraid to be the loser".This phenomenon is just like what we always say "If there`s sunlight and water source there would be Chinese settle down".What I try to say is,wherever there`s Chinese,there`s the existence of kiasu syndrome!

As a Malaysian Chinese,I`m not really sure whether I`m one of the Kiasu people.What I`m sure is,I`m now staying in an environment full of kiasu people =s I really can`t stand with their attitude.They will do anything in order to WIN!I think this is because we were taught about "Don`t be the loser!Winning is everything" since we were at very young age.Don`t they know that "Victory doesn`t mean anything?"

When a person starts to be kiasu,he or she will start to develop some bad attitudes like SELFISH!Some even starts to ignore/sacrifice other important things like friendship in order to win.Yes,I knew that being selfish is human nature.But then kiasu will make the situation worse.

By the way,kiasu syndrome also has its positive side.Kiasu make people to be more eager to compete and leads to drastic improvement.Look at Singapore.The Singaporeans are so kiasuthat they manage to make Singapore into such an advance country. =)

But then..I still hate kiasu people!!! >.<

明天以后

无意间在youtube发现这首由林峰和泳儿合唱的歌“明天以后”。这首歌有两个版本--粤语版和中文版。个人觉得中文版的比较好听。也许是应为歌词写得好吧？真的。我认为这首歌的中文版比较有感觉。

林峰很有唱华文歌的潜质哦^^

I♥林峰！！！

-我对你，再好再亲密也不能在一起-