The Last 20- years- old post

Hmm..for those who don`t understand my post title.Let me explain to you 20-years old is my age and what I mean is,this is my last blog post which I write when I`m (and the "am" is going to become a "was" in less than 2 hours!) 20years old.

When I was in secondary school I always imagine how I going to be when I`m 21 years old.Will I own a boyfriend who really care about me and no one will stop us to be together?Which university I will go to pursue my studies?Which course I gonna study?perhaps is music?And when the day of my 21st birthday,is it going to be a very lively day?

Well..I can tell you that my situation is totally opposite with what I`m thinking.I don`t have a boy friend and I`m enjoying my life without a boy beside me;I`m currently studying in a university which I never think before since I started to think about which university I want to go ; I hope to have a day that solely belong to me which means I wish to have a quiet birthday without any celebrations.I`m currently a Biotechnology student and this can be considered as I`m on the way to make my childhood dream to come true i.e become a scientist. I still don`t know whether I really made a right choice but I`m glad and proud to myself that I`m working hard on what I told people what I want to do.

Although I`m not a "holy" Christian but thank God,he never abandoned me.I used to blame the God but I finally found that he never stops to care on me.I am not a person who own everything that I desired but I`m sure I`m the blessed one.I can actually feel that God never leave me since the first day I knew Him and accepted Him as the guardian of my life.But i`m always forget about Him.When I success I would never think of Him but he still let me to enjoy the happiness of success again and again.When I blame about Him,He never give me heavy punishment.I can still remember when I was in NS camp,there was a girl got possessed.Many people were so scare there would become the next one to be possessed but I can tell you that I never scared of it and I know why.

I`m not from a rich family but I have parents who loved me so much.They always try their best to give me the best things.What they did on me is really so many that I could not write down all in a paragraph.Thanks to my parents they give me a comfortable life.My mom want to give me a platinum necklace or me but I don`t want her to do so.She sacrificed so much for me so I don` t want her to spend that money again.Too bad I don`t know how to tell her about this,it must be something...weird to tell her so =s

Ok I think that would be all for what I want to say.I`m going to turn 21 very soon and yes,there`s not much change.I`m still me xD with a easy- broken- heart~

Have a nice day!

I miss Astro !!!

Oww I miss all these advert,and also the football matches.Now I`m in hostel,can`t even get a proper streaming for football matches TT

非读不可！---〉追风筝的人

在你的印象中，“阿富汗”这三个字会令你联想到什么？宾拉登(Osama bin Laden)？

战争？塔利班？回教徒？妇女和儿童被虐待？如果你的答案是“是”的话，那么，你一定不能错过这本书。作者Khaled Hosseini 会告诉你一个不一样的阿富汗。作者将呈现给你一个不一样的阿富汗，一个曾经是那么美好的阿富汗。

作者在书中用细腻的描写人性的善与恶。故事中的主角阿米尔和哈桑情同手足，哈桑是阿米尔的仆人，他比阿米尔小一岁。他对阿米尔的忠诚是毋庸置疑的。但是，阿米尔却常常因为把他当成下人而常常在给哈桑念书时故意用些哈桑不明白的字眼来取笑他。他们都很爱放风筝，而哈桑每次都在为阿米尔最风筝。在1975年的冬天，阿米尔十二岁时，在赛风筝后发生了一件悲剧。哈桑被一个叫阿瑟夫的恶小孩给强暴了，为了那只风筝。阿米尔眼看惨剧发生，却没有站出来救哈桑。这件惨剧，改变了两人的一生。不久后，阿米尔把哈桑和他父亲-阿里给逼走了。他本人则在苏联入侵阿富汗过后和父亲逃往美国，从此再也没有见上一面。成年后的阿米尔踏上了故土开始了他赎罪的旅程，他把哈桑的儿子-索拉博带到美国去开始新生活。

哈桑对阿米尔的那句 “为你，千千万万遍” 给我带来了深深的震撼。为了要实现对他的少爷的承诺，他竟然情愿被侵犯也不愿把那只最好的风筝让给阿瑟夫。而阿米尔看轻了那句 “为你，千千万万遍”。为了得到爸爸的爱，他竟然没有为哈桑挺身而出。阿米尔一次又一次的出卖了哈桑。但是，哈桑却没有因此而怨恨阿米尔。哈桑在成年后学会写字后，非常用心的写了封信给阿米尔，并托将去巴基斯坦的拉辛汉 （阿米尔爸爸的朋友）将信交给他的阿米尔少爷。可惜，当信到了阿米尔的手上时，哈桑已死在塔利班激进分子的抢下。令人无限唏嘘。

人生中最令人感到恐惧的是莫过于面对过去曾犯下的过错。我们永远都学不会如何去面对我们曾经做错的一切也并不是人人都有勇气去弥补他。但，当赎罪的机会到来时，我想，也没有多少人能像阿米尔一样给自己重生的机会。的确，那挂在心里的愧疚感是我们永远的包袱。夜深人寂是，总能把人压得透不过去。阿米尔是个幸运的人。他愿意敞开心胸接纳他过去的罪行。

而后，重获新生。在把索拉博接到美国后的一个阿富汗新年聚会，他为他最风筝。就像当年的哈桑为阿米尔最风筝。只是，这一次，付出的，是阿米尔。“为你，千千万万遍”，这个“你”，代表索拉博。

看完了这部小说，我对阿富汗这个国家有了更深的认识和不一样的体会。在长达40年的战争中，阿富汗的弱势群体常年受到蹂躏。塔利班政权多年以来以宗教名义大开杀戒，欺压哈扎拉人。塔利班把阿富汗变成了人人闻风丧胆的恐怖分子大本营。从这里我们可以看到，当宗教的教条被有心的政客给误释时所带来的后果是多么的可怕。政客们利用宗教的名义来欺压无辜的人，以宗教律法草菅人命，以真主名义打“圣战”。于是，阿富汗从一个美好的国度变成人人都害怕的地方。国家的基本建设也停顿了40多年。阿富汗的人民还看得到明天吗？美国在2003年攻打阿富汗时，带来的，是和平？还是另一个动荡不安的年代？作者为我们提供了思考阿富汗课题的另一个平台。

FiNaLLy...

After working for hours and hours to edit the HTML I finally got my new blog template,as you can see now.
I love the vintage feel and the flowery background =)
However the font size at the blog title is just too tiny but trust me, I`ve tried my very best to make it looks like what you can see now.
I swear I`ll appreciate this template =))