Bye 2010

This is a post for remembrance. =)

It seems like we countdown for the year 2010 at yesterday,and now,the year is coming to an end.5 more hours,and we will say bye bye to year 2010.

Do allow me to jot down some memorable happenings throughout the year in my blog.

那些刻骨铭心的记忆。我就一个人在这里回忆吧 =）

1.February.1st Chinese New Year Celebration in my new house.

The Lee family had moved in to their newly built houses in November 2009.My new house is big enough to serve my friends for gathering.Thus,we played cards from the 2nd day until 4th day of the Chinese New Year.I finally knows to play cards..hehe

2.March.Jazz Concert!

Due to the miss of CH Band concert I decided to go for a jazz concert in Sungai Petani.The performing band was WVC Trio +1 led by Mr.Tay Cher Siang. I was thinking to go alone at first but I ended up to watch the concert with my batch mates.Thanks for all of their kindness for accompany me ^^

3.June.FIFA World Cup and Band Competition!

OMG that was the most exciting + anticipating month throughout the year!Thanks to these 2 big events I didn`t feel bored during my long holidays!I watched the 1st FIFA World Cup in my life when I was 12.That was Korea-Japan World Cup.I thought I will never watch FIFA again since then due to my busy secondary school life but thank God,I still manage to make myself to follow this big big event on TV this year(2010)!One important thing to remember is,my favourite team Spain became the Champion for FIFA 2010! Whether you believe it or not,I`m smiling when I typing this =)

!Viva España!

4.Bintulu trip with Ker Sing!

Well,this happen at the end of June.After Ker Sing finished her finals we pay a visit to Kok Yin who lives in Bintulu.That was an unforgettable trip in my life.It`s a joyful thing to meet the friends who really knows and share the similar opinion with you.I`m always looking for the next trip to meet Kok Yin!

BFF!

5.I realize that I was one more step nearer to the adult world.

You know,when I go to year 2,everything changed.Some people began to show their kiasu-ness.I was sick of them.Before this I always enjoy the time in the lab but now I feel like don`t want to get into the lab.I`m always asking myself.What`s the point we fight for all those opportunities to do experiment in the lab?Some treat me rudely,made me feel like they`re humiliating me.I realize that,some of my so-called best buddies are actually not that good.They back stabbed me,saying that my result is always worse than them.Hello!Result doesn`t mean everything ok!I swear I will become a more successful person than them in the future!Adult world is really cruel,once you step into it,all you will face will be full of bloody things.You`ll have no choice but do your part and keep a positive mind.

6.Thanks to all of my buddies in AIMST who always help me!

I became quite close with Xin Hua during last sem.I found that Erene and Evelyn are nicer than I think ^^ I`ll always remember those moment when we chit-chat,laugh loudly until mid-night!Thanks for everything.Without you all I would never have a more positive mind set,I`ll never have a chance to analyze something in other way round.

Breakthrough
I started to learn Spanish  during the my 3 months holidays in June!As for me Spanish is not that hard to learn especially the pronunciation.Spanish pronunciation is quite similar to Malay language.I will keep on learning this language.

Relationship Status
I`m still single but I don`t really mind about it.What I mind is my primary/secondary school mates and the elderly asked me about this issue.The road to become a biotechnologist is seriously very tough and I still have a long way to go.I need more strength and I know God will always give me a way =) I`m still faith in God ok!

Anyway I`m not ready to the new year.But I know I`m prepared for the challenges that will happen tomorrow!



*Sorry.Not much picture uploaded.The internet speed in unsatisfied.

Yes.I`m Critique the band.So What?

I guess this would be my very first post on the negative side of the band.Too be precise,is about my beloved band which I grew up and learnt a lot about the realities.As a band member I had the chances to travel to other places to do performances.I had followed the band to Italy in 2007,when I was a Form 5 student.Many people will think that it`s really good to be a band member,but they never know what was actually happening in the band.It`s no doubt that being a band members brought me lots of sweet memories and gave us experiences that other ordinary students wouldn`t have. But it`s also a place where I LOST all my CONFIDENCE and become self-abased.And this had affected my life after I left the band.Until today,I`m still working hard to re-build my self-confident.


1.Physical Appearance

Well,I learnt about how important for a person to have a good-looking appearance during my time in band.Those days,most of the committees members were male and,I`m sorry to say that,they are really ITCHY.They gave priority for the pretty new members to use instruments and go for performances/competitions.For those members who are not that pretty/ordinary looking they would have less chances to be selected to go for performances and competitions.Please note that these chances are really important for new members or they will be slowly eliminated.Since those ITCHY committee members chose the performing members based on the physical appearance basis (well,these new members were also capable,just they win because of their appearance), some other potential members but not pretty enough had lost their chances just like that.Yes.Just like that.I was the lucky one.I was a trumpeter.Since a marching show band needs more trumpeters they selected as one of the performing members.But I was teased by some of the members and I cried almost everyday.I became a negative thinking person until all of my best friends left me!When I was in the worst situation I dare not to look at others,especially the guys because I scare the guys will tease me.

2.The money-loving/sucking teacher a.k.a the manager

I have to admit that the teacher is a very capable one.Without the teacher the band would never achieve such great succeeds! Without her I would never have a chance to travel to Italy,where a place that everybody dream of it.But she is realistic to the max ; She favors those members with rich parents.She was actually knew my mom but she didn`t knew that I`m my mom`s daughter until she saw my mom.Before that she didn`t really care about my existence,didn`t even look at me.But after she knew that I`m my mom`s daughter then only her attitude became better. If a member`s parents could donate money to the band then the member would have a greater chance to get a high post during committee election.


3.Rude members

You know,most of the rich kids are rude and kurang ajar.I understand that it`s wrong to conclude the rich kids in this sentence but then this is what I experienced in the band.Most of the rich kids are rude;and most of the band members are rich kids.There`s only a few members are from a family background like me.They teased other band are poor,they teased other members` parents,they teased everything that could be teased.I was once their victim.I didn`t understand why they could be like that and I finally found out WHY is it during a trip with them to a competition after I left my high school.Let me tell you my found-outs.Their parents are also behave like that.When I`m typing this I could still remember the scenes,vividly.When other band doing their performance one of their members left one of his/her shoe at the middle of  the field.It`s  embarrassing and yet the parent were laughing till the end!OMG how rude is she!No wonder her son always tease others!Did`t she know that this is an accidents which might be happen in all the bands?!The rudeness of these rich kids were not only limited in this but also their hygiene.I was once a uniform officer and I always received some smelly and dirty uniform from them.It was a miracle that I never complaint when I was doing my job.This would be my very first time to complaint about this.


4.Backstabbing other bands.

This is what the extreme thinking seniors and the teachers always do,especially when the competition is getting near.I never agree about this.Music is something to unite the people but not to cause any quarrels or unpleasant things to happen.The rude kids always log on to the forum and talk something bad about the other band until our band reputation corrupted.What is the points to do such ignorant thing in the forum?Every band have their strengths and weakness,accept it and learn lessons from them instead of quarreling in the forum!FYI this is also a brain washing tactic for the teachers to ensure the loyalty of members to the band.However,I`m pleased to see that the relationship among the bands is improved nowadays.

These are the major things that I want to critique about.Although I been bully by them but I still got the chance to participate the band until I finished my high school.My 2 sisters were not as lucky like me.They left the band shortly after they joined the band.I just heard about my youngest sister`s experience few days ago and I was really pissed off.She felt like she doesn`t have a chance to be selected as a performing member in her current section so she requested to change to other section(musical instrument).Her section leader rejected her request and abandoned her.The section leader never ask her to go practice and band camp after my sister requested to change to other section.One day,my sister went to the practice after she asked about the practice time from her friend.She missed a lot of marching foundementals so one of her seniors ask her the reason of the absentees.She told the senior in an indirect way.The section leader said to my sister "I thought you are no longer in my section?" .I was like "WHAT THE HELL?" Now who was the one rejected my sister` s request and abandoned my sister and you end up telling such thing to the senior?? I myself felt very hurt when I heard about this,how about my sister?

During my time,it`s not encouraged to change section.Yes,I knew about that.But I never knew that a section leader have the right to stop his members from change section and then abandon the member.The section leaders would normally allow the member to change section.It`s the member`s right to seek for a better chance, right?This does not mean that particular member is not loyal to the band.Sigh.Some bad tradition inherited from the 2005/06 batch committee. I`m doubting if this is a conspiracy among those committee members to kick off the undesired member.This is really too much!My sister will no longer join the band since my mother and my another sister disallowed her to do so.My mom even said "If me and your papa stick a RM1000 note on our fore head and go for the parents meeting the teacher will surely let her take part in the state competition." How ironic,huh =)

I feel sorry for my sister would never have a chance to join the band and learn what I learnt before.

Is it something called Dilemma?

Yesterday I went to mcmc to send my resume and application letter for industrial training.My training would be in next May to August.I hope to do my training in Miri.

But then.You know,things are always not going in what we want it to be.I went to Environment Department in the morning,I was so disappointed at the moment I looked at their office.Is like..a sad n dull environment full of L&M.I`m not sure if I can really learn something if they accepted me as their trainee.

After that I went to MCMC hospital.The person in charge didn`t even take my documents.He told me I can`t learn much in their hospital.He said their hospital had accepted 10 students from Masterskill who are taking Diploma in Lab Tech.He recommended me to the General Hospital but I feel like don`t want to go for it =( I guess the uncle didn`t want me to waste my time in their hospital.True also.Their lab is so so so tiny with not much equipment.As I glanced over the whole lab there`s only some old old equipment,there`s only an unknown machine in the lab..

I suddenly realized something.Whether I like it or not I might have to stay in west Malaysia to build my career after I graduate.If I choose to come back to my home town I will be end up to work in the field totally not related to what I study now.You know my dream right?Studying Biotechnology was something that I planned when I was 16 a.k.a a Form 4 students.I`m still young to chase my dream but my mom hopes me to work in a government organization.The elders always prefer to have a "stable" life style but I knew that`s not what I want!Though I don`t like to deal with those kiasu people but I really loves to take challenges and competitions!And the only reason is,I`m still YOUNG to chase my dreams!And this would mean everything for me at the moment.

Ok,after bluffing for such a long paragraph,I guess I should continue to look for a suitable place for my training.

An afternoon with lao bu

I had arrived in Miri 2days ago and I got lots if thing to blog!

My KL trip with Sing Ying was really nice.Will write about this after this =)

Yesterday (Thursday) I went to Bintang Plaza to meet up with my "lao bu" Ker Sing and we exchange something =)

Here is it.

A new magazine,Key chain and a book from Ker Sing!

I got her a new Barcelona jersey (also for myself) at Bukit Binang,KL.hmm..too lazy to take a photo on that.Will upload if I got a chance,maybe in the next post.

Another thing that make me happy is...I finally got my new & bad quality I.C!!! I looks much more better in the new I.C photo!!!

Yes.I look much more better as compare to 12 years old^^

While shopping in Popular (me and lao bu`s must go place) I renewed my Popular card as well.My previous one was expired since last November.Since I `m a bookaholic I decided to upgrade my Popular card to "Privilege" card.RM 25 for 3 years instead of RM12 for 1 year ^^

One more thing to add on is,I was really amazed for their customer service nowadays!They really improved a lot!For example,I only spent less than 10 minutes to get my new card!The stuff printed this card for me in a few minutes time after I pay the member fees1!Before this I was worried that how long I have to wait for the new card since I seldom stay in Miri.All my worries had gone at the moment the stuff passed the card to me!Satisfied =)))

My new Popular card ^^

And that should be all..stay tune for my KL trip post!

Happy Holidays!

Have yourself a merry little Christmas!

I should act cute

You know,I like Teddy.

I will always remind myself to act cute and sweet when take photo with Teddy next time =)

1 more week of exam and I shall celebrate my Christmas.Wish me luck!

我想说

.....

我可以任性一下吗？

我可以耍一耍脾气吗？

因为我真的受不了一些人。

X的。

要人迁就你们，却不愿迁就别人。

Fogging!

..again!

It`s just like in Genting!But it`s warmer than Genting.But it`s still gives me a cooling feel!

Can you see that?It`s fog!

.

Can`t see?

....

......

..........

...............

then..

zoom...

Here is it!Can you see that?

Rapunzel Tangled *I`m in love with this! *

Genetics Engineering final exam is in 3days time and I`m still sitting in front of my lap top,listening to Rapunzel Tangled OST.

Alan Menken is a great composer!I`m always on his side!

This is my favourite song in the movie ---> I see The Light.

Beautiful lyrics.

I will make my prince to sing this for me but *too bad* I don`t have one.

I`m still waiting for my prince =) The God wants me to wait.

I love the man sing part,he has a good voice~♥

And this is the music that I LOVE the MOST! --> Kingdom Dance

All those days,chasing down a daydream,

All those years,living in a blur

All that time,never truly seeing

Things,the way we were

New Blog Template!

It left exactly 1 month till Christmas!!!Whee!!!!

I`m so excited about this since I`m going back to Miri for semester break holidays during that time!

As a Christian,the meaning of Christmas for me is to remember the birthday of Jesus Christ.

I`m blessed to be one the human beings to know the meaning behind Christmas.Jesus is the main character of Christmas instead of presents and Santa Claus.That`s why I use "Christmas" instead "X-mas".So you can see the difference between these 2 words.

I was struggling on which templates to be use.The dark blue template is much more simple than the one I `m using now but then something make the template special is, when the readers open my page it will start SNOWING!And I love the picture at the right corner as well!However,after I did some considerations I decided to choose the red template.Though it might look more messy but then I just love the bell,the "Welcome" notes feature,the reindeer~and about the Santa..it`s just for decoration.I just want to emphasize once again that the birth of Jesus Christ is the ONLY reason we celebrate Christmas.

Perhaps I will use the blue one for the next Christmas?I don`t know~

click to enlarge the pictures =))

Can you spot the "snow" ?

My final choice.

Old template

他=冷静

就连眉头深锁的时候，他看起来还是那么的“定”.

这么冷静的脸，并不是每个男生都能拥有的。

林峰的脸，是我见过最冷静的一张面孔。

不管在什么情况下，他看起来都是那么的冷静。

好喜欢。

迷失

在写这篇文章时，我其实真的很乱。

我觉得我真的迷失了，真的感到很彷徨。

我的世界在旋转，我认不清我要走的方向。

当初进来念Biotech时，我是充满斗志，充满理想的。

我立志要努力读书，享受生活，将来当一个出色的研究人员。

但是自从我上了大二后，我的课业突然变得很繁重。

也许是大一的时候太轻松了吧，我总觉得大二的课业太辛苦了。

每天早上八点就得开始上课到傍晚七点。

我几乎每天都得进实验室。

如果你以为呆在实验室里是件很轻松的事，那么你就大错特错了！

呆在实验室时间很具挑战性的事。

你必须保持这绝对严谨的的态度，清晰的思路，

还有，你必须懂得和别人抢机会来做实验。

每一步，都要小心翼翼，不然我们的实验就会功亏一篑。

晚上回到宿舍我简直就是没劲去温习功课了。

虽然买了打印机可以当天就立刻把Notes印出来读，但是我每次都很不想再去看了。

现在大考要到了，讲师们还是毫不留情的继续把他们的知识“塞”给我们。

我真的真的很压力。

我觉得我已经失去了大一时的冲劲和斗志。

上个学期，我为自己创造了蛮不错的成绩。

这学期呢？

过两天就得考OSPE。

我从早上逼自己读书到下午却还是没法读到什么。

我开始在想我以后真的还会朝研究员的这个方向去走吗？

我当然不甘于平凡。

我还有很多很多事想做。

我不想以后过的事朝九晚五的生活。

我想在Biotech这个领域有一番作为。

但，我连考试要读的东西都读不进了。

我真的好累。

我真的迷失了。

Photo of the Month (October) -2 lil` cutie things

I know it`s really late to write something about my choice of the October`s photo-of-the-month.

But then it will never be too late to share something with other right? hahahaha

Now let me tell you the reason that I chose this photo.Well I was in love with "cube craft" during that time~It`s not only easy to make but also looks adorable ^^ Since I was still crazy to the FIFA 2010 I decided to make Zakumi in Argentina and Portugal jersey~

I downloaded the template from here,print them out.After the templates were in my hands I started to cut out the picture,fold the dotted line region and finally paste at the edge.It was really adorable.I can still remember I kept on smiling when I was looking at my work ^^

I guess I should get myself some white manila card to make the template for my next cubie toy =)

template 1 : Zakumi in Portugal jersey

template 2 : Zakumi in Argentina`s jersey

告诉我，那是为了什么？

有那个大学生不想考好成绩拿dean list？

那可是一种荣誉，一种肯定我们挑夜灯，开夜车，早起努力奋斗的成果呀！

但是，在这所大学。大家为了当那个笑到最后的胜利者而不择手段。

无可否认，大学生是应该竞争的，可我的大学里，存在的竞争却是恶性的竞争。

这。。好吗？

试想想，两个表面看起来很要好的朋友，其实背着对方出尽法宝，斗个你死我活。

为了打败对方，隐瞒，欺骗，虚假的笑容样样来。

为了争取做实验的机会，推的推；撞的撞；摇的摇，只为了抢在最前头，抢到最好的机会。

为了知道同学的成绩，不惜一切，只为知道他们的成绩，好作比较。

在这所风气极不健康的大学里。

成绩，就是衡量一切的标准。

你的聪明，才知，知识，等等都要靠那区区几科科目的成绩来衡量。

成绩好的，人人就会暗地里想着把你踩下去。当然，在这之前，大家会夸你聪明。

成绩稍差的，连草都不是，因为你连被人踩的价值都没有！

也罢。

没人踩那就更加好！

不会痛嘛~ *笑*

是吗？

我宁愿站在悬崖上，

冷眼，

静观那海里的波涛汹涌。

然后，嘴角微微扬起。

换换换！！！

今天我终于明白为什么女孩们都喜欢在失恋的时候跑去剪头发。

原来，换了个发型就能换个心情，换个想法。

这-是-真-的。。。

话说我在上两个星期六跑去剪短我的头发。（其实还是长，只是比之前的头发短罢了）

其实我很不舍得把我那头长发给剪去，毕竟真的很长了！而且我也留了很久。。

可是我几乎每天都要进lab而我也很懒惰每天帮头发和照顾头发，再加上那段时间我心情真的很不好~

所以我决定去剪短我的头发。

大家都说我剪了新发型后变得亲切很多，好看很多 *真的啊？*

我个人觉得也不错。。哈哈！

但是我发现我剪了头发后心情真的也跟着亮起来耶！

就连思想也豁达很多很多很多很多。。

多到我成绩考不好都不再Emo，反而跟自己说Final一定要努力！！！！

哦这是好事吗？我不知道。。

我只知道我真的没有伤心和失望到。这有点不像我，我有点不习惯。。

我这次很差不代表我到最后也会很差的ok！！！

我不知道这是不是换过发型过后的心理作用。

我只知道我现在身心灵都充满了正面的能量！！！！！

前

后 （希望你们看的出长度上的变化）

那是我们都回不去的从前

这几天，我一直在看回以前的旧照片。

看着照片，我开始堕入了回忆的漩涡。

周星驰说的真的没错--〉 “人是会变的！”

照片是一年前拍的。也有些是中学时期拍的。

我发现，

身处在时间洪流的我们，除了带着回忆不断前进之外，别无他法。

不说远的，说近的吧。。

我看了很多一年前拍的照片。

那是在不远的2009年8月。

我们笑得是多么的灿烂。。

我们是多么的开心。。

但是现在呢？

大家都变了。

不管事内在还是外在，

大家都变了。

我不再是从前的那个我，你也不再是我最初认识的那个你。

他呢？他怎么变成了个陌生人似的？

我有得重新的认识他了。 （好像很忙ho？忙着重新认识人 XD）

我们被环境逼着成长。

我们被环境逼着走入那尔虞我诈的世界。

我们被逼一次又一次的面对人性的丑恶，然后，看开。

看着照片。

我知道，

我们再也回不到最初的那个我们。

S.H.A.M.E

I`m a Malaysian Chinese and I feel very PROUD to my identity.

But then I found out some negative sides of the Chinese and I really feel shame about it.

Let me tell you what are the weakness of the Chinese (based on my observation in uni)

1.Extremely Kiasu (Scare to lose)

2.Kiasi

3.Selfish

4.Love to complaint but refuse to take any action to make the situation better.

5.Rude (In some way)

6.Keh Lin Keh Si

7.Extremely fussy (this is the one which I cannot stand for it ><)

Haiz...Too bad I`m struggling in this kind of environment!

Trust and Honesty 信任，诚实

“大风吹，吹什么？” 大家一定对这句话很熟悉，因为他是我们童年回忆的一部分。每当我们玩“大风吹”时，其中一个人就会问“大风吹！”，其他人就会应“吹什么？”，然后那个喊“大风吹”的人就会发出指令如“吹没有穿内裤的人！”然后那些没穿内裤的人就得起身去抢椅子。

这看似简单又有趣的游戏，其实就是在考验着人与人之间的信任。年幼的小孩们，思想单纯，没有心机，更不知道什么叫顾好仪态，听到指令，就会诚实的站起来去跟人抢椅子。也许有些小孩已经开始懂得说谎，但是我想大多数的小孩都不会去想那么多就去抢椅子了。

写到这里，有令我想起了另一个游戏叫“老鹰捉小鸡”。老鹰捉小鸡，就是一个人扮老鹰，一个人扮母鸡，剩下的人扮小鸡。母鸡的责任就是要保护小鸡不让小鸡被老鹰捉走。我在十一二岁的是后就已经发现了关于这个游戏一件事实。我发现我在幼稚园和小学低年级（7-8岁）晚这个游戏时，“小鸡”们都会乖乖站在“母鸡”身后让“母鸡”保护。。但是，当我们的年纪大一些时，我们开始选择自己逃跑，而不在是让母鸡保护。当时的我们会认为我们离母鸡太远，母鸡会保护不到我们。所以我们选择自己保护自己。至少当年我是这么觉得的。走笔至此，我不禁怀疑，我们，人，是不是在那个年纪就已经学会了“不信任”？我们是不是在不知不觉中对别人，对自己失去了信任,进而犯下了种种与“不信任”，“不诚实”有关的罪？

当我们开始对自己不诚实，我们就开始对别人不诚实？过后，别人也对我们不诚实。最后，人与人之间不再存有“信任”二字？然后，我们开始在考试作弊，信口开河，欺诈，出卖别人。。。我们开始制定法律来保护自己。做生意要签合约，办信用卡要签约，不管是什么，只要是有关于到“信任”这两个字的东西都得签约。可悲的人类。

犹记得在大一时，有位讲师，第一天进班就要求我们和他达成一项约定“Trust and Honesty”.大家默不作声。直到后来。我们把他的lab report交给了他几天之后，他忽然说要见我们。在那次的见面中，他很生气地问我们有没有互相抄report.没有几个人敢承认他们有抄。最后那讲师一气之下，竟然给我们满分，以后他也不要在管我们了。也许我们是因为害怕受到处分而选择不诚实。

是的，我们很多时候都会选择不诚实。我们会选择不信任。那我是不是该说，选择权在我们身上。只是我们选择不信任?既然不信任别人，那别人也开始选择对我们不诚实？

Convocation

Today is my uni`s 3rd convocation ceremony.I been there just for a while before I go to the town.

Convocation day is always the day which is a very joyful and proud one!After few years of hard works the students can finally graduate and the convocation ceremony is here for them and also their love ones to share the glory =)

I`m going to finish my degree course after 2 years and I`m starting to imagine the day when I wear the graduation robe!My parents and my grand parents will surely be proud of me!

The day is not long from now,just that I have to work very hard and enjoy my uni life very hard =))And yes,witness a convocation ceremony is a very motivational thing =D

To Do Before my 21st Birthday (part 2)

I had listed few things that I want myself to finish before my 21st birthday. Click here to see the previous post~Ok now let me continue to add up some of my new target to- be-achieved.

6. Spend less time on facebook, surfing the net.

-Yes I admit that I`m addicted to internet especially facebook and this had become the major reason for me to read less book.I can say that I lost patience to read a book.Though I still read but I can`t finish in a short time like before.I must spend my time on other stuff especially reading.

7.Maintain a healthy life style.

-I know this is quite impossible as I`m staying in a hostel but then I will try mt best to achieve this target!!at least I should sleep earlier =)) And also try my best to spend some time on doing some exercise..Haha..

8.When I wish to do something,just go for it!

-Well this need loads of courage..can you sell some of yours to me? xD I realized that I got a lot of things that I wish to try but I just don`t dare to go for it!So from today I want to ensure that I will give myself some more confident and courage and go to do anything that I like to do..Of course not smoking,drinking,taking drugs xD but things like go for travelling,go to watch a band concert in Penang....

9.EQ!

-Erm this is another hard thing for me.Sometimes I just can`t control my emotion.I don`t know it` because is my own problem or because of those childish people I met in my daily life =s I don`t care but what I want myself to do is be tolerate and keep quiet!

10.Get a result with flying-colour in my year 2.

-Though my result is not that good last sem because of that stupid entrepreneurship but I promised myself never give up!I would never forget what I had promised to myself!

Kiasu Syndrome!

Agree or not?The Chinese are born to be kiasu.Kiasu in Hokkien means "afraid to be the loser".This phenomenon is just like what we always say "If there`s sunlight and water source there would be Chinese settle down".What I try to say is,wherever there`s Chinese,there`s the existence of kiasu syndrome!

As a Malaysian Chinese,I`m not really sure whether I`m one of the Kiasu people.What I`m sure is,I`m now staying in an environment full of kiasu people =s I really can`t stand with their attitude.They will do anything in order to WIN!I think this is because we were taught about "Don`t be the loser!Winning is everything" since we were at very young age.Don`t they know that "Victory doesn`t mean anything?"

When a person starts to be kiasu,he or she will start to develop some bad attitudes like SELFISH!Some even starts to ignore/sacrifice other important things like friendship in order to win.Yes,I knew that being selfish is human nature.But then kiasu will make the situation worse.

By the way,kiasu syndrome also has its positive side.Kiasu make people to be more eager to compete and leads to drastic improvement.Look at Singapore.The Singaporeans are so kiasuthat they manage to make Singapore into such an advance country. =)

But then..I still hate kiasu people!!! >.<

明天以后

无意间在youtube发现这首由林峰和泳儿合唱的歌“明天以后”。这首歌有两个版本--粤语版和中文版。个人觉得中文版的比较好听。也许是应为歌词写得好吧？真的。我认为这首歌的中文版比较有感觉。

林峰很有唱华文歌的潜质哦^^

I♥林峰！！！

-我对你，再好再亲密也不能在一起-

想念

温暖的阳光，

伴随着阵阵暖暖的微风~

啊！这真是难得的好天气！

阳伞，只不过是大煞风景的东西。

我想起了，

那几年，

每天从早练到晚的铜乐队生涯。

从太阳升起，

晒到夕阳西下。

走在阳光下，我想起了这一切。

但，那日子，这回忆，已

渐行渐远。。。。

你不在

林峰把这首的诠释的很好。虽然他翻唱王力宏的歌，但他还是有吧那首歌的感觉表达出来。

一字一句，唱到我的心坎里去了。

你不在 当我最需要爱

你却不在

我受了伤偷偷好起来

你都不在

Je continue à vous manquez

这真是。。。

。。。。太有才啦！

本来我是要看林峰的，但是最后我却把焦点放在王祖蓝身上！

牛啊！

忍无可忍

我一直在忍，忍，忍，忍，忍，忍。。

我忍了好久好久。。

真的很受不了了!

于是，爆发。

但他们有谁会知道我爆发，

是忍无可忍的结果？

他们只会认为我小气，玩不起。

我真的很受不了他们。

现在，就连看他们一眼，

我都感到厌恶。

我只好在痛苦的世界里徘徊。

手机不断重复播着我最爱的“诗”。

我在伤痛和愤怒中挣扎着。

Yiruma的“诗”，是最好的慰藉。

我变成一颗定时炸弹，

随时都会爆炸。

他们提心吊胆，

这都不是单单我一个人的错。

别。怪。我。

这。都。是。你。们。逼。的。

有感而发

很多时候，对于别人的付出，

我们视为理所当然。

以至于，

忘了珍惜，

忘了感激他们的付出。

我们时常忘记，

别人的付出，

不是理所当然。

他们，只是有着一颗乐于助人的心。

他们付出了。

也累了。

换来的，不是感激，

是埋怨。。

Having Holidays in the Lab

I had my one week Hari Raya break and the holidays is going to end very soon.Classes will start from tomorrow =s During this holidays I can say that I spent half of my holiday time is the lab in order to do some experiments.

I went to the lab by volunteer,with some of my course mates.We went there to do bacteria culturing on the CMC agar.CMC is the abbreviation for carboxymethylcellulose. We did this practical with the help from the scientific officer,Mr.Dinesh and also our Bioprocess technology lecturer,Mr.Prabakaran.

Since there is only 3 of us,we had the chance to prepare the agar,all by ourselves!We got the chance to go to the chemical room and take the chemicals,and the do the calculations to obtain the amount of chemicals that we need.Besides,the s.o also taught us how to operate an autoclave!All this is quite impossible when we have practical session during normal times due to the number of students.

We spent an afternoon to prepare our agar which would be use as media later and then the next day,we streak the bacteria onto the media.After two days we went back to the lab again and checking the result.To our surprise,we manage to get a positive result!!Sir said very good and told us to contact the lecturer and tell him about this ^^Sir said we are the only group who get a positive result for CMC agar =D

We are so happy to hear that and feel like we did not waste our time during the last few days!

Below is our results and also some of th epictures that we took in the lab =)

This is the positive result.

The yellow portion shows that cellulose had been digested by the bacillus.

A comparison of positive and negative result.

The results from all the plates.

We used Congo Red and 0.8M Sodium Hydroxide to see our result.

Group photo : Wong,May Chee and I

Me and May Chee

-Very good!-

Modelling~

This is a back dated post~Last Wednesday I went to Penang with my house mates.As usual we went shopping in Queensbay Mall.

I managed to get myself a new dress.My house mate,Sing Ying also bought herself some new clothes.After we reached our hostel at about 10.30pm we decided to wear our new clothes and then take some nice picture ^^

Here is the pictures.Enjoy.

I`m not a good model.HAHA!

Ignore the background please..

I seldom be so elegant =)

BTW,I`m actually want to buy this dress since I love the flowery print so much .But too bad it looks like a pajamas when it put on my body =s So I didn`t buy this dress.

-I love my new dress <3-

I call him Bob Bradley~

As for me,this assignment is a very huge project because there`s 14 figures to be drawn,labelled and explained.I`m not good in drawing.

I spent 1hour to finish my 1st figure-the overview of human digestive system and I realized that I really got no idea on how to draw the lips from the side view=s

This is the figure that I drawn.It looks much more "slimmer" than the original figure that the lecturer had shown.I named my figure as "Bob Bradley" because it gave me the "Bob Bradley" feel at the first glance.

FYI,Bob Bradley is the coach of the USA national soccer team. =)

*Mr Bob Bradley,I don`t mean to insult you*

Somehing Wrong

Look at this.This is my uni`s admin building under the blue sky.Nice right?

But studying here is kind of suffering.

They call the uni as "JUNGLE" but for me I would rather to refer as a CAGE.

Yes.A CAGE.Once u get into the campus it`s quite hard for you to get out unless you have your own car or call a taxi to fetch you to the town.

Uni life here is not as vibrant like other uni.

The students keep on study studystudystudystudy.

Study is everything.

your exam results determine your cleverness.

Kiasu-ism is very common here.

When coming to class we all write write write as much as we can,

but when the lecturer ask questions NO ONE will ever give a little response.

They don`t even bother to nod their head.

When come to lab session you can observe various ugly nature in human characters.

Selfish,kiasu,no manners,irresponsible,anti-social....

These can be seem so clearly until you can produce a documentary on the ugly side of human beings.

Exam results should be a TOP secret so that the friendships won`t be spoiled.

Failure in particular subject is a BIG SHAME,the situation just a little bit better than the sky is falling down.

The dress code and the UNNECESSARY RULES to be forced to follow.We were treated like a secondary students.Students council board member are HIBERNATING,Students Affairs stuff never learn to respect the students(who paid them salary),the exam division stuff like s*it,IT department seems like sleeping all the time until we do no have a system to see our results online,get timetable.

How great is it.WOW!

Let me complaint,pls.

The sky is blue,so do my mood!

《女人最痛》教会我的事

在我假期的最后一个月，我看了这部连续剧。但在这部戏却在我回来读书过后的一星期才播完，所以，我，千辛万苦。。下载PPTV，每天慢慢等它loading，总算看完了这部剧。*泪*

有关这部戏的剧情去我就不在这里赘述了。我要分享的是，我看这部戏所学习到的功课。虽然有人指这部剧是抄袭外国剧《丑女贝蒂》，但我还是不得不说这是非常值得去看的剧集。这部戏找来了老戏骨米雪，张可颐和滕丽名等演员来同台演戏，令这部戏更加有看头。好，废话少说，现在马上进入重点。

1。不要作践自己

中学时期，常因为被人取笑自己长得很丑，时常暗自神伤。当时的我，非常的想不开，三天两头，就因为被人对自己的看法而掉眼泪。我甚至想过去整容。但在剧中滕丽名的一句话令我顿时开窍，感触良多。她说“在我爸妈的眼中，我是最好的 ！” 我不许他们的心意一而再，再而三的被糟蹋！” 对呀！不管别人怎么看我们，在爸妈的眼中，我永远都是最最最完美的！这句话我已经牢牢的记在心里.这句话提醒着我，不要让爸妈的心意被外人糟蹋，也别为了迎合他人而作践自己。

2。努力！努力！再努力！

虽说环境造就一个人，但成功还是得掌握在自己的手中！本剧的其中一位女主角，张可颐所饰演的角色-Jackie出身在一个重男轻女的家庭中。父母亲把所有最好的都给他的大哥。纵然Jackie天资聪颖，学业成绩一流，但她还是没有机会像哥哥般被父母送到国外去读书。但她依然可以凭着自己的努力在事业上越爬越高！虽然她的一些行为令人不敢苟同，但，她的努力使不容被忽视的！

3。凡事留一线，日后好相见。

Jackie在事业上野心勃勃，为达目标，不择手段。她在做每样事，对付别人是都采取赶尽杀绝的态度，就连对待自己的未婚夫也是如此。她这样的做事手法，令她处处树敌。当剧情走到大结局的时候，她虽然达到了目标，但却失去了一班好友以及爱她的男人。

4。斗争的结局，不是一胜一负，而是双方都输！

我们可以在这部连续剧中看见各个角色勾心斗角的场面。Noble和丈夫争孩子的抚养权；Angela，Noble和Jackie在工作上争得你死我活等等。。到最后，我看见的是，看似大家都得到了他们想要的东西（赢），其实，大家都输了！对！大家都各自输了他们最宝贵的东西。Jackie成功夺得了亚太区总裁之位，但却输了友情和爱情。看似威风八面，其实心里的那种空虚有谁知？！Angela为了要得到Senior Brand Manager 之位，不惜勾引上司，最后被Jackie向媒体揭发，身败名裂。最后只得转行卖保险。Bibi,本剧中的丑女，后因整容而变美，成为炙手可热的模特儿，但却因此差点失去了家庭。幸好她既是觉悟，才不至于成为另一个输家！

5。爱你所爱，在适当的时候勇于放手

当属于你的爱情来临时，就敢敢去爱吧！但缘分走到尽头，也要及时放手，这样，我们才能去迎接下一段幸福。

好啦。这就是我所学习到的。愿与知音人共勉之。

上课情景

讲台上，讲师滔滔不绝的授课。

口沫横飞。

讲台下的我们。

一脸茫然。

Adidas Impossible is Nothing Commercial

"Now I realize,sometimes bad things can turn out good." --Lionel Messi

再别康桥

再别康桥

作者: 徐志摩

轻轻的我走了，

正如我轻轻的来；

我轻轻的招手，

作别西天的云彩。

　

那河畔的金柳，

是夕阳中的新娘；

波光里的艳影，

在我的心头荡漾。

　

软泥上的青荇，

油油的在水底招摇；

在康河的柔波里，

我甘心做一条水草！

　

那榆荫下的一潭，

不是清泉，

是天上虹；

揉碎在浮藻间，

沉淀着彩虹似的梦。

　

寻梦？撑一支长篙，

向青草更青处漫溯；

满载一船星辉，

在星辉斑斓里放歌。

　

但我不能放歌，

悄悄是别离的笙箫；

夏虫也为我沉默，

沉默是今晚的康桥！

　

悄悄的我走了，

正如我悄悄的来；

我挥一挥衣袖，

不带走一片云彩。

我一直都很喜欢这一首由徐志摩所写的诗。我其实很早就接触了这首诗。但真正让我对这首诗印象深刻的，还是中四那年的那一堂名句精华课。

老师为了要让我们了解这首诗的意境，特地找了影片来放给我们看。我才知道，原来“康桥”在英国，也就是我们所熟知的“剑桥”。在这之前我一直以为康桥是中国的某个桥~ *汗* “再别康桥”是作者去了英国剑桥大学后，在回中国的路上所写的诗，借此表达他对离开剑桥大学的不舍。他很希望能够在回剑桥去看看，但很遗憾的是，他回到了中国不久后，就在一场坠机意外中遇难了。他再也没有机会回去看看他挚爱的康桥。

诗中的桥，指的是是剑桥大学里那闻名于世的数学桥。数学桥"厉害"的地方是，它是完全不用一根钉子，而是应用数学的原理建成的。不过现存的数学桥已经不是最初的那一座了，因为它曾经被学生拆了然后尝试重组。重组不遂，就只好用钉子钉过一座一模一样的桥了。至于长篙，则是用来撑小船的工具。在剑桥，这是常见的景象。

很喜欢作者这带着淡淡离愁的诗。面对离别，作者的态度，有的只是潇洒。也许他在压抑自己即将离开的惆怅？我们不得而知。人总有悲欢离合，离，是不能避免的一个人生历程。在离开时，我们只好轻轻的挥一挥衣袖，不带走一片云彩。就让那份牵挂场在心灵深处的某个角落吧。

悄悄是别离的笙箫，沉默是今晚的康桥。

So close,yet so far

This photo was taken during my flight from Miri to KL.

I was lucky enough to catch this scene,which the aircraft is very near to the cloud.

The cloud is just in front to me,it`s too near to me to touch.

But we were separated by the "window" of the aircraft.

That why I named this photo as "So close,yet so far." Just like...

看似近在眼前，其实遥不可及。

Terminal Tiga

I could still remember that when I was in Form 4 I studied a Malay novel called "Terminal Tiga" .The novel which was written by Othman Puteh was a compulsory reading material for our Malay Literature studies.I didn`t read the whole novel but only study about the plot,the synopsis,characters and other literature components so I knew the story line.

Terminal Tiga means "The Third Terminal".The main character was from the inland of Sabah.He left his hometown in order to further his studies in Kuala Lumpur.The Terminal Tiga refers to Kuala Lumpur Airport and also Kuala Lumpur where worked very hard in order to make his life better.

It left two days for me to go back to Kedah to continue my studies.Since there is no direct flight from Miri to Penang I have to stop at Kuala Lumpur and transit to Penang.I feel like my experience is more or less similar to the main character in Terminal Tiga.Both of us lest our hometown to further our studies but I`m more lucky because I`m from a good family.Unlike the main character whose father was run away when he was very young.

If I say Miri is the first "terminal" in my life and KL is my second terminal,then Penang and Kedah would be my third teminal.Penang International Airport is the place where I start my journey either back to my hometown or the starting point of my journey back to my university.This is the place where I have lots of feeling and I would definitely think a lot when I was in the airport,thinking about everything in uni,thinking about my parents and grandparents in my hometown...

So the 3months holidays have to mark a full stop here.I`m leaving very soon and probably will only come back next year,during the Chinese New Year.Though this is a non-productive holidays for me but I did learn and experience new things.I realized how important am I to my parents and my family.This is something that I never expect to see during this holidays.

Penang Intenational Airport.Taken during last January.