我和灰色

认识我的人都知道，我很喜欢紫色，是喜欢到接近疯狂的那种。但是，最近（我也不知从什么时候开始）我发现我爱上了灰色。说道灰色，我想人们第一个联想到的都是比较负面的事物吧。呵呵。我认为如果要判断一个人的性格，可以从他喜欢的颜色略知一二。

我是在不知不觉中爱上灰色的，也许这和最近发生我身上的一连串事件中有关吧。回来大学前，我考车fail了两次（每当夜深人静时想起这件事都有种想哭的感觉），接着是对现有这间大学的厌恶感，然后人际关系方面的老问题，接着被告知我大一的课程里有包括化学（我化学超烂，而且前几届的学长学姐们也没读化学），加上前几天臭金毛讲师给我带来的打击。。。等等小小的事件。我发觉到以前中学的我又回来了。发觉自己失去了说服自己乐观的能力，甚至开始怀疑神。现在的目标就是封嘴（保持沉默），努力读书，快快乐乐的上网。。剩余的事我不想再理。

我是个天生的悲观主义者。以前不开心事还懂得哭，现在呢？遇到挫折连哭也不想哭了。哭了也没有用。要哭也是欲哭无泪。长大了，有什么事情都得独自承担了，不能再麻烦别人来安慰了。现在的我，只能要求自己坚强，努力的变成乐观主义者。开始觉得，英国利物浦（Liverpool）球队的口号：“You`ll never walk alone”也是假的。最近的口头禅也已改成：“哎呀，你们不明白的啦”对啊，没人能明白我的啦，不用担心我，因为我会很努力的学习着如何去承担这些不如意的事。

又是篇悲观有没水准的文章，请见谅。

Why Biotech Student Need to Study Chemistry TT

It`s me second lecture week.I have to study 3core subject for this semester which are : Genetics, Molecular Biology and Basic Chemistry.What?Why we biotech student have to study Chemistry!This is my first response when I been told that I have to study Chemistry.Again >.

Anyway,maybe study Chemistry will benefit us.But I don`t have confident to study Chemistry.Everytime when there is Chemictry class I surely cannot focus to the class.I will feel depress when I think of this subject.I will think that,argh.What should I do if I didn`t do well,if cannot pass then I cannot graduate.After then I will consider to give up.

There`s is too many things happen on me recently,which make me questioned about God.Everything cannot go smoothly.U know.From young time until now.I never have a good luck when doing everything.NEVER!My bad luck never gone!However.Luckily.Fortuntely.I also don`t know why.When I went to library last week I found a fabulus Chemistry reference book.It`s a very goo reference material,for me.Thanks God this time.With that Reference material I finally get know about some Chemistry concept.I mean.Organic Chemistry,which I gave up since I was in foudation.And now I finally master a littel bit of the concept.

What I learn from this incident is,always be POSTIVE even you`re initially NEGATIVE thinking person.I still fell stress to do Basic Chemistry but I will continue to struggle.

Life as a University Student

I just started my classes today.
The 1st lesson that i had is Genetics.Sound interesting right? =)
I guess this will be my favorite subject though it may be very tough.
However I`m no longer a foundation student,so I can`t expect spoon feeding from my lecturers.
I must be hardworking enough to find the extra information about the particular subject by myself.
Thanks for what AIMST foundation thought me last year.
I won`t feel panic when my Genetics lecturer told us to find the extra stuff to study.


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As I plan to go for work after I finish my Biotech course thus I`m prepare to learn more other than just study to get excellent results.Yea, our life is not all about study,but is about how to apply what we have learnt in our daily life.Thus I`ll try my best to enjoy my university life ~

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I got 6subjects to study during the 1st semester.Wish me good luck yea ^^

回来了

我在上个星期三已经回来吉打当大学生了。
没有期待，没有兴奋。因为这次我去的是一间我不想去的大学。
但我除了咬紧牙根拼到毕业，还能做什么?
爸爸妈妈辛辛苦苦赚钱让我上大学，我怎能嫌弃？
几个月前收到offer letter 时，信上清清楚楚写明开学要缴付的费用是马币10990！
爸爸连眉头都没皱一下，毅然扛下这笔费用。
虽然不愿意回去原本的大学读，我也只敢藏在心里了。

离开的那天早上，发生了一件严重打击我辛辛苦苦建立回我自信心的事。
至今我仍然走不出这事件的阴影。
一个人，乘搭着马航班机，飞往吉隆坡去了。
我享受一个人搭机的感觉。
一个人，一切都是无声的。周围的喧嚣也与我无关。
沉醉在自己的世界里，仿佛这世界就是属于我的。

花了几乎一整天的时间，我终于到达槟城国际机场。
我先在慧萍家过了一夜，才去大学报到。
一切的事物都是那么熟悉。
仿佛离开，只是昨天的事。
唯一变了的，就是这里的人们。

Miri Resort City during these Few Days

This is the first time I think that Miri is like Genting Highlands.As I said Miri is "LIKE" Genting then there`s some differences.Genting is cool and there`s fog.A nice place for vacation.Miri is danm hot,and there`s no fog but SMOG!

Here is some of the picture that I took today.Just to let You to know how serious the air pollution is.And one more thing to mention,if u have a chance to stay outdoor you will know how SMELLY it is,bwcause of the smoke cause by open burning.Eww.






-A view from my parent`s shop.That is Miri Bus Station.






-Took in evening.Outside my house.

Another scene outside my house.

In my Father`s car.Let`s guess the distance of visibility ^^

Red Sun